I listen patiently
to everything he has to say
but nothing makes sense anymore
no one speaks my language
in this place...
no one understands
so why should I say a word?
even if in self defense...
I've been told
that I should confide in him
if I were having troubles-
though he'll never know
that all my troubles
are with him, and the lies
that make up the fabric
of our mortal history.
I wish I could sympathize
but I won't waste my time
cause he would never hear-
he would only confirm
my greatest of fears...
that I am alone-
and I am unhappy with the ending
of this dark demented fairy tale-
and I am confused- that the
star of the movie was killed off
after only two scenes...
adoration's nice-
but can he claim my indecision
and make me realize
that nothing's worth the effort
I've put into believing in him?
that nothing's worth effort
at all anymore.
And I hold out my ticket, to claim
my second-hand issues
passed down to me
like a worn blanket
that barely keeps out the cold.
I've been told that I am special
that I have so much potential
but I don't feel special at all
right now, and that is fine...
I am happy just to be on my way...
Just happy that he'll let me
keep my consolation prize.
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