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I would fill in the silent parts
with words of my own-
if you left me with anything to say
and I would try a little harder
if anything I had done thus far
had made any difference at all...
had made me able to please you
even just a little...

What will it take
to satiate your need
to prove me so worthless?
I've been down this road before
a mindless spinning feeling-
everything slightly off tilt-
and behind it all,
the underlying knowledge...

that this is not high school-
this is grade school...
I am suzy-Q, and you little Billy...
and we will never resolve
these bitter differences,
until we admit
that it isn't the differences at all,
but the similarities
that set us to war this way...

I can make myself believe
that you mean nothing to me-
but it will never hide the truth-
I can never change who you are,
only how I feel.

and as of today-
I feel nothing.
I would rather be numb again
than in pain
because you pushed all the wrong buttons
and I am busily preparing
for self destruct.