I dream of dark places,
and angry faces-
here, I am a murderer,
here, I betray everything,
and there is no sense of loyalty
for you to accuse of failing...
know, brother
that to you,
I am forever bound.
and in this state of being,
our eyes meet -
all context flees the scene.
And I watch
as you recognize
that I am what I claim to be.
There is for once,
an understanding
and we share more in a moment
than I have offered you
in all these years
and I believe for once,
that you might care.
and then I wake into this world-
a nightmare darker than my dreams will ever be.
The alarm clock is a monster...
red digits stare me down
in the dark,
screaming.
wake! Today is another day, another way to prove
that life... will always be this way
and I have hated myself
for oaths I've pledged to you -
and for your lack of gratitude
I begin to hate you too.
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