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I have watched you spill yourself
over places that you should never 
have visited in the first place- 
and watched you sigh your discontented
sigh one too many times- and I have 
watched you wring your hands, rub your eyes,
and look the other way, and I am finished
watching you, I have better things to see...

I know a dark secret-
I could change all of this 
in a single heartbeat.
but I remain.

If you have something to say-
say it quickly- say it quietly...
I haven't the patience, or the time
to waste on your words...
I haven't the space in my heart
or in my life- for another complication

I have seen the black ink
smudged across the last page of this book-
and I can throw down every emotion
at your feet and walk away-
you see how this ends for yourself, 
you find an outcome-

take your leather and chains, 
and your black, and your grey, 
and your eyes, and precious lips
and leave me now...
don't stay to watch me fall apart-
don't stay to watch me fall at all...

find yourself outside of me- 
and let me live my own life 
without the constant tension 
that hides in the empty place
that we have created between
the place where you are, 
and this- 
my sanctuary.

I am alone without you-
and honestly, 
the better for all the silence.