Today could be my downfall
pouring rain
and racing emotions
or
Today could be my salvation...
a relief from the memory
of what it felt like
to give everything up
to manipulation...
this canvas drips
with years of anxiety
and I sometimes forget
how fucking scary this is.
Paint me like a scene
that makes you smile
that lights those eyes
you use to look at me
when you call me beautiful.
Laugh away
this hotel dreamscape
and remind me in the morning
that the door was never locked
remind me in the morning
that you are still beside me.
and I will not remember
life before you came
and I may lose myself in you
and I will sometimes forget
how fucking scary this is. |